Natsukashii. 上过新东方G班没怎么逃课的人估计都听说过这个词，你的词汇老师会在解释agreeable melancholy的时候提及这个日文词，然后说不定还会伴随着一些仇日笑话。这个词其实很有意思，稍微更准确一点的解释是nostalgia of the past，就是回忆过去美好的时光那种悲喜交集的感觉。

woodk群里面说起芥末花生，我在上半年某天晚上在他们都睡觉之后一边看血腥电影一边嘎嘣嘎嘣地啃芥末花生，还不断傻笑。然后某2为此失眠并记恨到现在。好吧，其实我不是故意的，我没地方睡觉嘛。美好日子，然后再也会不去了。听起来好悲伤，好像说你这辈子唯一真正快乐的日子也就只有那一段时光了。真的吗？如果我们一直都没变，都在那段时间停留着，真的就能一直快乐下去吗？或者说，其实我们现在也应该是快乐的，因为还有更糟糕的情况可以发生。

La Science des Rêves. 法国电影真是romantique啊。载着森林的小船去寻找海洋母亲，这么疯狂的意境都能想出来。然后狂喜欢这部电影的另一个原因是她有那种"埋藏在表面地下的深深的悲伤"。正如豆瓣上面某个影评对片子结尾的评论，梦醒来以后会是怎样，不敢想象，因为太残忍了。自己老喜欢在coulda been 和being之间游离着，死拽着完全不存在的东西不放手，然后就只能看到一片漆黑。

刚才又再度confirm了现实中的坏消息，我应该对自己说还有更糟糕的情况是吧。罢了，不呓语，活下去，嗯，活下去。

Ok, I know I am exaggerating here and you all know I am an exaggerating kinda guy... whateva...

Come to think of it, I should be satisfied or way more than satisfied by now. Been done so many things together and had so many good times. What more can I ask for from some one who dont luv me. But yep, I dunno what the heck is wrong with me that when the whole world moves on already, I still keep clinging on those false hopes. (in Spanish, Falsas Esperanzas, Ok, enough smart-ass-ness) So that's when a rehab comes into play...Ok I lost myself here, you all can go ahead and guess what I was trying to say, coz I dont what I was trying to say. In fact I shouldn't even have published this one...Just ignore it...

For those of you who know me well or have a habit to read every update of my blog, you must remember my relationship with the dear old McDonald. Well, here's the news, we broke up. Yep, for two nites before last nite (sorry for not using "day" as the counting unit, coz I'm an owl), when I wanna reignite the fire with McD by trying to stay the nite up in there writing my personal statement, I found the place filled with wierd and unsavory crowd. So wierd and unsavory that even Auntie Crazy became the most lovable character in all of'em. And to add insult to injury, McD started to play all those crap-taste songs that I hate to the gut. Those so called Internet singers...They dare to call themselves singers... So I just packed my bags and moved on to lush.

Ahhh, dear lush, warm light, cozy sofa, agreeable background music (by agreeable , I mean a lot of'em I can sing along or nod my head along with joy), and multi-language-using atmosphere. Of course, there's downside here, lush offers crappy food, and a even-crappier-songs-playing chef(Gosh, if only I had a chainsaw, I would rush right into that damned kitchen and dexter-ize the place).

So here's what I usually do for the past few nites: A corpse-look-alike me slacks into one of those sofa, under dim light, with a cigarette in my left hand and a cup of mocha on the right side. In front of me pile up tons of personal statement samples. And that corpse-look-alike me occasionally shivers rhythmically after the music and might even mumbles a few lyrics. Yep, you get the picture, the picture of my graveyard shift in Lush. For that, I do have a lust for lush.

Dexter 209

Angel says,"Dark days, my friend. Too Dark. I need a light at the end of the tunnel."

I am, too, waiting for that light to come.

But the name of the episode is  "Resistance is futile".

ps, As many tanks as in WWII to the newly-wed rabbit for those yummy cuppie-jelly and the devilish cheer-up card.

A bad movie, a really BAD movie. Fantastic OST though. Gothic rules! I am such a gothic person. I am looking more and more like the Jack (from Nitemare before Christmas) given to me by 2: Black eyes, pale face and bony fingers. Dead. Vampirish.

Ok, let's go back to the OST. I always dream that I am in a club with the DJ playing this OST, and I dance senselessly in some devilish light. I would pretty much be shouting all the time. Taste my blood. Taste my rage. Taste my sorrow.

Sh*t...gotta go now...well, anyway, this is one hell of dark and twisted album. Do listen to it some time if you have the same taste.

Another 9 -star movie for me, IMDB style.

Actually I think I luv the song "Falling slowly" more. I just sit there and cried for the whole time when they started playing it...Twice. Never see that coming.

ibt居然这么早出分了，阅读29听力30口语27作文28

这次其实没啥准备...表打我...基本上是靠考前那个星期断续地做barron模拟，然后加上一晚烟酒（哦，是烟咖啡）交加的半通宵和一晚咖啡薄荷糖交加的小半通宵。再次严重感谢一直支持我的街坊乡里们，尤其是在我临考阵脚大乱时给我信心的街坊乡里们。

昨天忘写了，今天补上。

例牌地去教129，开始前还以为辅导员要做思想动员，然后...

辅导员：大家知不知道今天什么节日？

小孩们：光棍节！

辅导员：对啦，大家不要觉得难过，我陪大家一块过节。

小孩们：（哄然）...

我当即趴下，用钢琴挡着脸狂笑...

然后找到去年写的东西:

For those who are too picky to pick a lover;
For those who have too many lovers to decide where true love lies;
For those who simply don't need a lover at present or at all;
For those who, like me, are too lame to be loved;
And for those, who are waiting for the right one to come;
Happy Singles' Day.

去掉self-pity部分个人觉得还是写得蛮不错的.....

"Tomorrow will be a better day", these days it seems that I can't fall asleep without repeating that sentence to myself; well, except for, of course, the case where some alcohol and occasionally some thow-ups are involved.

I have not a single drop of tear. Am I turning into an emotionless trainwreck? Or maybe I shoulda just listened to my mama when she said "Drink more water". Yep, more water, less alcohol. Oh, and no smoking. I didn't think I would become a smoker, and I still don't think so. I just don't want to waste or bring back yet another pack of unfinished cigarettes to my dorm. Roomies are quite surprised at the piled-up lighters.

"Today will be better than yesterday", another catchy phrase I use. This one is for getting myself off bed after those consecutive insomnious nites. It's quite amazing how one can go on with so little sleep.

No, I am not unwell. And yes, it's a lie. You dont expect some one to snap right out of it, or do you? Anyway, I am putting on my game face. Rock on, or maybe just rock bottom...

Ok, I'm not kidding...她们五个(注意，是五个！！！)以熟妇形象回归。然后为了配合——至少我觉得是——今年她们在VS2007上面的表演(Yep, they're gon' be on the show and nope, I didn't see that coming either.)，她们在最新单曲Headlines的MV里面性感内衣上阵(Well,至少有三个内衣上阵)。同时她们居然还有新专辑出来，很怀旧的新专辑，没有把最新单曲包括在里面的新专辑...完全搞不懂她们想干嘛。新专辑还成，加上for old times' sake，豆瓣上我给了4/5分。

看了"Once upon a time in Mexico" ，太B级了。故事基本上是延续"Desperado"(至少我觉得是)，Antonio Banderas继续充当花瓶角色，不过就花瓶吧，这片子里面花瓶多得很，Johnny Depp在里面也差点沦为花瓶了，花瓶又咋样，好看就好了。可惜Salma Hayek花瓶得不够，在片子里面转瞬即逝...怀念她在From dusk til dawn里面的蛇舞...尽管最后她把脚塞进昆汀嘴里了...

台词好龟毛，尤其是Johnny对Rodriguez的猩猩表哥说那句台词"Are you a MexiCAN, or a MexiCAN'T"。我直接笑歪了。（号外一下，据说传说中以Rodriguez的猩猩表哥为主角的血腥电影Machete还真的在拍摄中，不过我完全不知道这则消息的真实性。）

既然说是"Desperado"的延续，当然又可以看到被当作武器来使的吉他啦（是不是很有Planet Terror里面机关枪女的感觉呢），而且武器越来越出奇，尤其是两个配角Mariachis（这俩花瓶我居然都认识，一个是性感大粒痣，一个是Nuovo Cinéma Paradiso里面青年时代的Salvatore）的吉他，连遥控炸弹车都出来了。然后这俩配角Mariachis的形象塑造也比"Desperado"丰满多了，尽管被塑造成一贪财大妈控MB和一酒鬼了。

个人觉得其实Johnny在这片子里比Banderas主角多了，龟毛的台词和龟毛的T-shirt(仔细留意T-shirt上面的logo你会笑死的)归他说了，令人啼笑皆非的假手道具归他用了，最后被挖眼了还能继续装酷，堪称legend。现在CIA在我心目中的形象一个是American Dad,一个就是Johnny的这个角色...

总结，反正就是一部特别爽的电影，最适合郁闷的时候看。看完如果你还再想为啥Rodriguez能一部电影拍得这么龟毛的话， because he is a MexiCAN!(...NOt)

背景音乐改动

歇斯底里地喊

原来陶吉吉也是巨蟹座...

ps现在网上的歌词真不靠谱，贴个我觉得靠谱的。

快阻止 时间倒转
当我们 再次遇见

怎样的表情最适合隐瞒
我依然爱你很深
别再多看我一眼
别试探我真的感觉
我怕忍不住又回头眷恋
你连背影都温柔

不爱 就转身离开

一个人 把回忆推翻
不爱 否定了未来
你恨我 别心软 我也不为难
不容许 谁还牵绊
误解了 别离的美
不可能重来 这遗憾的爱
我们都诚实对待
不爱 就这么离开
一个人 被寂寞牵绊
不爱 承受这悲哀
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 不能说出来

不爱 就转身离开
一个人 我学会忍耐
不爱 承担这悲哀
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 我微笑离开
I LOVE YOU FOREVER 就这样 不爱

Ok, not so daily...

The worst food you eat before you get drunken and throw up is the spicy food. You dont want those spices to get up in your nose.

    我承认我在听了一遍之后就把Jay Chow新专辑在豆瓣上打上3/5的评分是因为我很不爽上面一边倒给5分的那群人。然后水母pop版上面像野狗一样铺天盖地的“周董新专辑太赞美了”的评论迫使我重新逐首歌返听专辑。

    周杰伦，尽管很有才华，能写歌，能双向弹钢琴，但是他的歌唱技巧其实没多少(尤其如果陶喆站在旁边)，所以听他的歌的时候我注意留意技巧之外的东西，除非某些地方唱得实在不能忍。

    “扯”很扯，不过骂人骂得很爽，然后那个怪阿姨的声音很好玩。反正我从来对他这种风格的歌不感兴趣。不过，真得不要的最会写歌的人。

    “牛仔很忙”太不能忍了，居然还是点题歌曲，还真以为自己啥风格的歌都能唱么，除了那句“因为啤酒伤身体”之外，整首歌可以扔垃圾桶了。

    “蒲公英的约定”。有人说听到前奏就哭了，估计因为我没看电影吧。总体来说很舒服的慢歌，说舒服除了说明不难听之外，还说明从都到尾没啥起伏，听完也就听完了。

    “青花瓷”，toke中国风。顺耳，容易唱，估计又要变成KTV口水榜前几位了，其实也没啥，菊花台够口水了，还是很好听的。

    “甜甜的”，周董您多大了，这种十六七岁的歌，越听越觉得一个穿着扎着粉红色大蝴蝶结装嫩的王心凌在你脸前晃脑袋...好吧，我太mean了。其实除了年龄不符之外，这首歌还好吧。

    “我不配”，同样是一首“舒服”的歌。无他了。

    “无双”其实很哥特，挺喜欢的，给人很“雨夜中站在繁华都市摩天大楼天台仰天狼嚎”的感觉(I know, I know, cliché)然后周董那被混响过还是很可怕的啸音来了...不过高音控的我现在很想K这首歌，咔咔。

    “阳光宅男”听名字以为是和“甜甜的”一样十六七岁纯纯的慢歌，然后居然是像一大群摇滚热血楞头青唱的歌。很阳光，的确。

    “最长的电影”，很“舒服”的有一首歌，很有“世界末日”(which is yet another "舒服"的歌)的感觉。貌似现在我对慢歌真的很苛刻。

    “彩虹”，故意把这首歌放最后，因为最喜欢，好吧，至少是在那段rao出现之前我很喜欢。同样是没看过电影，但是这首歌一放我倒是一下被吸引住，周唱出感情来了，或者说我被共鸣了。

     嗯，其实回头看整张专辑可以给4分的，不过既然有狂热粉丝，就需要我这种冷水的存在，维持3分原判。

That woman looked at me as if I was from another planet. So what, so I brought a chocolate bar, a loaf of bread, mentho candies and a soft drink to the lab...But hey, dont judge me. Judge the guy who's walking ahead of me. He had shampoo and towels in his basket! I mean, who brought a basket to the lab? And you're gonna shower there?