Natsukashii. 上过新东方G班没怎么逃课的人估计都听说过这个词，你的词汇老师会在解释agreeable melancholy的时候提及这个日文词，然后说不定还会伴随着一些仇日笑话。这个词其实很有意思，稍微更准确一点的解释是nostalgia of the past，就是回忆过去美好的时光那种悲喜交集的感觉。

woodk群里面说起芥末花生，我在上半年某天晚上在他们都睡觉之后一边看血腥电影一边嘎嘣嘎嘣地啃芥末花生，还不断傻笑。然后某2为此失眠并记恨到现在。好吧，其实我不是故意的，我没地方睡觉嘛。美好日子，然后再也会不去了。听起来好悲伤，好像说你这辈子唯一真正快乐的日子也就只有那一段时光了。真的吗？如果我们一直都没变，都在那段时间停留着，真的就能一直快乐下去吗？或者说，其实我们现在也应该是快乐的，因为还有更糟糕的情况可以发生。

La Science des Rêves. 法国电影真是romantique啊。载着森林的小船去寻找海洋母亲，这么疯狂的意境都能想出来。然后狂喜欢这部电影的另一个原因是她有那种"埋藏在表面地下的深深的悲伤"。正如豆瓣上面某个影评对片子结尾的评论，梦醒来以后会是怎样，不敢想象，因为太残忍了。自己老喜欢在coulda been 和being之间游离着，死拽着完全不存在的东西不放手，然后就只能看到一片漆黑。

刚才又再度confirm了现实中的坏消息，我应该对自己说还有更糟糕的情况是吧。罢了，不呓语，活下去，嗯，活下去。

Ok, I know I am exaggerating here and you all know I am an exaggerating kinda guy... whateva...

Come to think of it, I should be satisfied or way more than satisfied by now. Been done so many things together and had so many good times. What more can I ask for from some one who dont luv me. But yep, I dunno what the heck is wrong with me that when the whole world moves on already, I still keep clinging on those false hopes. (in Spanish, Falsas Esperanzas, Ok, enough smart-ass-ness) So that's when a rehab comes into play...Ok I lost myself here, you all can go ahead and guess what I was trying to say, coz I dont what I was trying to say. In fact I shouldn't even have published this one...Just ignore it...