I could light none of the cigarettes successfully last nite. Chances are there's big'O fan rotating above me; chances are this is a big'O omen. When you're desperate and delusional, you tend to think of f'ed up reasons like the 2nd one.

I am Jack's drugged brain.

Keep stuffing myself with menthol candies and black coffee powder. I dont know about y'all, but radiohead's new album brought a mirage-ish feeling to me. I dont know if I an enjoying them or letting myself controled by them. 

I am Jack's ripped heart.

"Survivor", surely an ironic enough name for a book which contains a myriad of sentences like this "I'll go in the bathroom and hack all my veins open with a razor". I dont have a razor...well, I do have one, actually, but you can't use a battery-powered razor to cut anything, can you? Anyway, if I have a razor, or a knife, or sth, I might as well try that. It's like, I heard my blood screaming "free me".

I am Jack's suicidal tendency.

两对拖鞋，一对左边那只中间裂开，一对右边那只鞋底脱落，所以现在我穿着两只截然不同的拖鞋，右边那只上面还写着"Dare to be different"

Just finished watching "the lake house". During the last part of the movie, I was quite moved, to be specific, close to tears. And I would had given the movie a 9 out of 10, had Keanu Reeves stayed dead in the end. What the heck is with all those sythetic happy endings? Saccharin, that's what they are, with that disgusting and cloying taste. I mean, We don't need all that pseudo-happiness to cheer us up so we can live our miserable life, or do we?

其实我们都是一群喜欢喜欢上不喜欢自己的人的孩子啊。

ps看到好久没见的一大群本科同学了，前天。亚克西倒了，吃串去哪儿好呢...

"You're totally biased."I said that to 2 when she told me Jay Chou's "Secret" movie was good. Yep, I just know it. Coz I was biased, too. My bias lie on my hatred for sci fi movies or tv series. I dont know why guys can watch shows like Star Trek or movies like Star War and be so darn cultish about them.

Well , the X files is better. Coz I was a huge fan of it. To tell you the truth I used to sit in front of the TV every Tuesday nite at 9:30 waiting for the show. I just luv watching Scully and Moulder hunt down some were-wolf or be chased by some troglodyte. Maybe in that sense, I just take the X files as a thriller or horror show.  And that's why when they brought up the whole alien s***, I was completely turned off.

I still hate those alien s*** nowadays coz they ruined my fav show. An exceptiong is that awesome alien in American Dad, though. And Donnie Darko is one of the rare cases that I love a sci-fi movie, perhaps because it's about isolation and suicide? I dont know exactly...

Talking about horror movies, I watched 3 today: The Reaping, Dead Silence and The Blair Witch Project. Boy, it really feels great to be scared. Though I was more scared by how religously-crazy those scriptwriters of The Reaping are than the movie itself. Dead Silence is quite cliche, to be frank, and how can you not have a female leading role in a horror movie! But over all it's still a good film, big'o kudos to the big twist at the end. And the witch one is a horror movie in a pseudo-documentary form. I saw this form once in Behind the mask, which is also quite good a horror movie, though the horror part of which is not so horrifying.

生气，想要逃离什么似的骑车飞奔。日久失修的挡泥板很不适时宜地偏偏为这郁闷的一刻增添了精彩的一笔。我飞起来，狠狠地被扔到地上，心里唯一的想法是，别毁容，好像我有容可以毁似的。还好实验室在附近，拿纸巾擦着血，师兄在旁边玩文明4。

lush满了，五角星外面好长一条队，于是在卡瓦小镇，这个每次不是别人哭就是我哭的地方。黑啤叫多了，我又高估了自己的酒量。血一直在流。

步行去北航北门买止血贴，步行回清华。车摔了一下，居然好了。楼下的猫此刻好像是最关心我的人。照镜子一看，止血贴也挡不住满下巴的血。今晚怕是要血溅床单了。